About
ME
My Story
I was born in Illinois, and grew up in a quiet patch of suburbs just north of Chicago. From a very early age, I would bike and walk through the neighborhoods and forest preserves, aimlessly searching for some adventure. I was an introspective and often nervous kid, so the peace of natural spaces calmed and comforted me. Whenever I would discover something new in the woods, like a long-buried junkyard or a hidden island, I would feel a strange sense of home.
This desire for adventure and belonging would later take me all around the country — road tripping, hitchhiking, hopping trains, camping out in recycling dumpsters and abandoned buildings. I met friends and partners, joined clubs and activist groups, bounced from job to job, house to house, city to city. Eventually I would meet my (now ex-) wife through my bike club friends, and would follow her up north for a time. Without knowing it, she would lead me to a whole new way of experiencing reality, and completely change the course of my life.
Around the same time, I had started a gender transition that was similarly revolutionizing my sense of self. As a queer transgender man, I’ve often viewed life from the margins. Whether positive or negative, these experiences have pushed me to reexamine my ideas about gender, sexuality, race, class, and many other social categories. I deeply appreciate the value of these perspectives, and hope that this process will continue to unfold and deepen.
Feeling like a “stranger in a strange land” eventually led me to explore philosophy and spirituality, as an attempt to understand what we’re all doing here. Through friends, I would be introduced to the book Be Here Now by Ram Dass. Ram Dass’ book, lectures, and especially the stories of his community of spiritual misfits cracked my dry little heart open. I longed to find out whether this sort of mysticism still existed in the world, and prayed for help to find it.
When my friend moved to Oregon to study with a spiritual teacher named Shambhavi Sarasvati, I told myself I was only interested in learning more about her because I was too lazy to find my own teacher. Years later, I decided to take her Trika Foundations course, and quickly recognized that this person had access to real wisdom. She was able to translate these complex ancient topics into language I could understand, and guide me in spiritual practices that are truly transformative. When I had the opportunity to follow her and a group of Jaya Kula students to Maine, I jumped at the chance. Later, when she introduced me to Vedic astrology, I had no idea how radically and thoroughly it would recalibrate my everyday existence.
For more information on my background in Vedic astrology, see My Astrology Background below.